Do you also wake up in the middle of the night and almost reach for me because you forgot that I'm not there anymore? I slept next to someone else last night, But I had a dream that I was next to you, And I have never felt more disappointed in my life than in that moment when I woke up. I can't tell which is worse, the disappointment or Trying to sleep while holding myself together because it feels like everything is about to spill out of me.
According to everyone I should just go meet someone else, but it's not that easy. I have no interest in talking to anyone when I'm sober, When I'm drunk I just end up telling everyone about you. I can't tell if I'm waiting for someone to confirm that you're never coming back Or for someone to lie to me so I can feel better for the night.
Can I ***** out all my feelings too, along with the *****? I almost thought I had, the night I was dry heaving into the morning. That was the night I got so drunk I couldn't stop asking everyone I saw Why Didn't You Love Me? I'm sure all the strangers in the room thought I was crazy. I have dreams about you all the time and even in my dreams, You still don't love me.
If I stare at your Facebook chat bubble long enough, Will I see the three dots of you beginning to type a message? If I stare out my window long enough, Will I see you walking towards my front door? I still want to punch a hole through the wall whenever I hear a song that you used to sing to me. That's become particularly annoying since the Chainsmokers got popular. Apparently I can't get over you while still listening to your SoundCloud playlists But I'm not sure what else is worth listening to.
The other day, my friend commented on how fast I walk. I told him it was because I had gotten used to your speed since you're much taller than me. In reality, I think it's just to make up for the parts of my life that haven't been moving at all.