he says he doesn't want me like he should. his blood doesn't boil and he doesn't feel desire like he wants to when he sees me. but he comes to me crawls to me sneaks to me in the night, whispering "it's been a while" while he brushes my cheek. and then he's satisfied and disappointed when he realizes that he needs me more than he wants me, and that i'll always want him more than i need him.