The knowledge of growing and feeling the flowing of the ins to the outside showing, what you are. It's enough to drive you mad hoping to make glad the hopes of your mom and dad while being your own man with a plan who along with everyone is pretending he can. True change is subtle and I'll pose a rebuttal to any of those quick fix ****** that think life is anything but a struggle. I constantly tell myself to take the toys of life off the shelf and be not a man but a very mature boy who enjoys life for what it is. Insignificant in the grand scheme but significant and supreme to each individual, it can be full if you feed on the right stuff and not this materialistic fluff but relationships and love. The taste can't be replaced it's easy to get tossed and lost in the cost of brand names and hearsay claims; you hear the heresy names shouted at you for being different. Take time to rewind and look back at the facts that make you true. Apply the sutures to the wounds so the futures got more room to grow and you know you will. The past never returns and the future never arrives so your only choice is to be present and alive. **** fear, you don't need it. Make a goal and succeed it. Everyone is different and this life is on rent so make sure all your money is spent by the end my friend because only dead plants don't grow.