5 years ago I was angry
vengence flooded my hollow veins
my skin was rough from self inflicted pain
my scabs turned purple, my eyes turned red
I was hateful and tired and bed ridden

5 year ago I was scared
fear swallowed my soulless insides
my hair was thin from all the gin
my nails were brittle from scratching at cement
I was weary and timid and bed ridden

5 years ago I was nothing
revenge conquered my purpose
my hands were cold from nights awake
my smile was jaded from faking
I was not who I am today

5 hours ago I was me
Right now, I am new
I threw away my hate
I swallowed my pride
and I decided to love my life

5 months ago I forgave you
5 years ago I could never
5 hours ago I forgave me, too
and 5 seconds ago I was new

Time ***** dry of what drive we have
hands tick and cause us to feel like collapsing
but I got tired of the scrapes on my knees
from praying to God for some sort of relief
so I decided to be that for me,
and I forgave you 5 years ago
I forgave me only 3
but it is behind us now
and we can move on
because 14 years ago
I thought I was wrong

5 years ago I was different
my body had seen better days
my heart only 15 years old
was ready to give in
I found forgiveness
in the darkerst corner of my ribs
I broke off a piece
to let some air in
and have been healing
ever since