one day someone will walk into your life just at the right time
and you will think that all of your unanswered questions
are answered
and that all of your loose ends
are *******
and that all of your fears and worries
will go away.
you will be wrapped up in their arms and you will feel warm
safe,
complete,
whole.
you will unknowingly put their happiness
before yours
and they will
take and
take and
take
and you won’t even notice
and you will think it’s all okay
because you will think while
they are taking parts of you,
they are giving you parts of them as well.
and maybe they are.
but one day
after it’s been a long time
and after they complete your thoughts
and after they know your biggest secret
and after they know how you like your coffee
and they have memorized your wardrobe
so they know when you buy a new shirt
you will find out that they weren’t giving you all of them.
you will find out that you have run yourself dry
and they are still standing tall
and so little of you is inside of them
that they can walk away and they can be sad for a moment
but they can forget about you.
you will be left wondering what went wrong
and you will want to go back to them
because it is the only thing that you know
and you have forgotten that once,
before they walked into your life,
you were okay.
you were fine.
you were happy
and not sad
and not missing them
or anyone for that matter.
there will be days and nights
when you are so sad that you can’t get up from your bed
and there will be times when you look at yourself and only see him
and there will be moments when you feel the entire world crashing down and there will be seconds when the world seems to stop spinning.
but let me tell you this-
one day, you will be okay again.
not because you found someone else to complete your thoughts
or know your favorite things,
but because you realize that you can do all of this on your own.
you can write your own sentences
and you can experience things without someone by your side
and making you think that you need them in order to truly be happy.
first ,you will be sad.
you will be sadder than you have ever been
and you will write in your journal
and listen to depressing music
and feel like you can’t move on
and like you can’t be alone.
but one morning you will wake up
and he won’t be the first thing you think of.
one night you will go to sleep
and appreciate a bed all to yourself
and not wish that he,
or anyone else,
was there too.
one day you will see who you are
and what you can do
and how little you need someone else.
one day you will not give yourself away to someone
and you will keep it all within you.
one day you will be okay.
one day.