What hurts…
Not seeing you
Knowing youre not okay and not be able to help or comfort
What hurts is planning on doing things
Dates
Dances
Then, at last minute, cancel.
To take back those words.
What hurts is knowing we have to wait years to be treated as a couple
We have to wait till we leave to get that chance
We have to wait to have dates
We have to wait to do those things that others do daily.
People in the same position.
But they dont like us.
The most powerful woman in your life
Doesnt like me
And is doing what she can to convince you to leave.
She puts you through hell
And its because of me.
I dont want you to leave
But i want you to be happy.
So if you are happy not going through this for the next year or two
I wont blame you
It hurts to think that you might wake up and think that its not worth it
To think that no matter how much fun we have had, that going through hell for me
Is not worth it.
Im not worth it…