for hours at night i keep myself company i write, i think, i listen i crave parts of old lovers put them together into a dream one i miss one's respect another's vibe regret a whole one except physical touch one's laugh another's moan the way different hands felt around my waist and lips to mine i go over old instances only the two of us had deep intimate moments of the past and how for a minuet span in man's notion of time we were only for each other until money, reputation, other women (abridged version of list) were their "reasons" their excuses then i cry and the night is over so i go to sleep
"evol:" sounds like "evil;" love spelled bakwards; love is evil