i want to look dead (but not actually die), maybe then you'd notice me, i should give it a try. my lips (like your eyes) would be blue as the sea, my hair (like your words) would flow with such ease. i could grasp your attention and hold on to it tight so you would not leave in the dead of the night. my skin smooth as porcelain, as white as a cloud, perhaps then you might have the strength to say aloud how much you adore me and how much you care, how much you truly want me to be there. but this is all hypothetical, i mean, i'm still alive and that's what divides us, confirms you aren't mine. you are too filled with life (if that could ever occur) and all that i am is simply a blur. i want to look dead (not actually die), maybe then you'd notice me, i should give it a try.