All of those sleepless nights... Resting her weary head... All of the dreadful .. Lies that have , laid  in her life ... She becomes speechless... No words for the hopeless... No thoughts for the unthinkable... Despicable little things in her mind , made her think long and hard.. flashbacks... Happen so quick, like lightning bolts , striking .... Wanting to sob .. Of all the pain held within.. She cant help but to **** it all in.. Like a black hole .. Deeper than an abyss.. She is trying to forget.. The unforgotten past.. And move on with the present.. But its too hard to think straight, when all the past is present, every little thing.. That reminds her o her wrong-doings... ***** the life out of her... And there she lies.. Lifeless .. Thinking of ways to feel unbroken.. Alive... And forgiven... She wants to be snapped out of  this state of mind she has been dragged into, she needs some time to think.. But she is afraid, to be left alone.. With her own thoughts.. Because all they do is hurt her .. No matter what .. It hurts so much , realizing how much pain is in her eyes , just looking i. The mirror , she cries , because she only knows how much pain... Lies within.. She is the only one.. Who understands ....She is the one who has been lying to herself, saying everything is okay.. But she hates that her smile.. And outer emotions is based off of one big LIE!!! , she is SICK...She is TIRED!!.. Of all of this distress.. She wants it all to end.. But that is only if she.. Herself, breaks the bottle .. That she keeps deep within herself .. So she can finally let it all out, so she can be free.