You're trying to fill the void in your chest with meaningless emotions,
with happiness that lasts only a few hours
with content that's there only when you can see it
with smiles and fake laughter
that signal to your brain that you are ok....

But as you come back to reality
when you are all alone at home
when the darkness fills your room
and your  thoughts take over your mind...
Then you realize that it was only temporary happiness...

You start feeling the pain creeping in...
You can feel your heartbeats louder than ever.
You want to rip your chest apart again...
Because you know the truth, you can feel it...
And it hurts, it ******* hurts!
As much as you tried to run from your own feelings
As much as you tried to run from your own pain,
It's been there... waiting for you...

So you turn on the radio,
expecting the music to drown your thoughts,
to mask the pain in your heart...
you start moving stuff around the house,
make yourself busy...

You can't take it any longer
So you go out into the night again...
To fill the same void with meaningless emotions
With happiness that only lasts a few hours...

And once again the cycle is repeated...