I am ready now I knew I was ready when the words slipped from my lips driving home. It wasn't the song that was playing, but lines of a poem that I had not yet written. The lyrical reminders that I am still smitten
By You. You're still there.
I'm the in the library You pull out my chair. I need a parking pass You pay for my fare. In the day you're there and I'm aware that you stare at me but at night
At night I. Feel. You.
When the wind reminds me of how warm your presence can be. When the door below the exit sign of the lecture hall opens and it is not you but the kind of girl I thought you would have wanted instead of me.
I stare at that door. I stare at it and wish for ***** blonde and broad shoulders. For sturdy hands that make the perfect holders for my heart. I stare at that ******* door hoping that you will open it and everyone will wonder who you are and their answer comes when you grab me and give me that kiss long overdue.
at night On Tuesdays I leave that lecture hall and return to my room. And I stare at that door wishing for a flannel and green-hazel eyes. I stare at my door praying to any god that for the night you come and make love to me. For you to come and look at me like you did the first time and let me make up for all of the over-thinking. For all of the fear. So you can teach me how to love you.
You don't have to stay till morning. Just long enough for me to fall asleep in your arms.
at night When the time comes for me to squeeze the sheets I whisper your name. Because I only want that pleasure from you.
I am afraid of loss. I am afraid of being used. And during the day I venture alone. But at night I only want you.
I've been avoiding writing poetry for a long time, afraid it would be painful. As it turns out, nothing was more painful than holding it. I hope you see this.