She knew, she was different and that she wont fit in they'd never accept her as the real her she knew there are boundaries always to be kept and there are lines never to be stepped on that there are limits never to be crossed...
They knew she was different and that being different was not here choice it was in her like an instinct and knew the chances of her dying if they tried to change her but still they ordered her to change !!
Surrendering to them just to be accepted and to be normal like others she decided to change and after fighting a war killing her dreams and a part of her soul she was finally able to supress her wired side and was Ordinary like others !!