do not offer to take me home with you.
this body is breaking down
and i do not need any more of your
toxins or bullet holes.
with all your strong hooks
and pretty words.
i do not need your validation.
i felt something from you
but it was not love.
i do not need you to be whole.
your jokes about dying are not funny,
but everybody is laughing.
these lines are not about you
they are about no one
you like my lips
you love your gun
you like my hips
you love her tongue ***.
i do not mean anything to you.
when i sat in silence for hours ,
you could not handle it.
my silence should've told you that
i keep a bottle of pills by my bed.
if i told you i needed those to keep me happy,
would you still want me?
the answer is no.
the way you screamed at me when i said i was sad
told me that.
words don’t always tell you what you need to know.
this body is breaking down,
and your false care will not mend it.