That was the night I took eighty pills- consecutively. The next morning I was late for college, and missed the train. There was a lump in my throat from where the pills still seemed to be. My stomach was full of pills, so I had black coffee for breakfast. I looked at the train tracks and sought it would have been less painful to be lying there than sitting with these pills in me.
That was the day there was a solar eclipse, and I couldn't care less. But nor could anyone else, about the way I felt. Or didn't at all.
That day I sat in class and the boy I pretended to have a crush on, heightened my anxiety. I left the room and my teacher never did the task she had set again, She thought it triggered my anxiety. The boy didn't notice when I left.
That was the day my mum drove me home, an hour from college, and I slept in the car. It was the day my new job rang me about my first shift.
I spent the day on the sofa, thinking: About the boy in my class; the pills in my stomach; If he would find out I was drawn to him; and if anyone would find out about the pills.
A week later my friend found out, and told me to go to the hospital. But I didn't. The boy never found out, because I never said a word, and never felt a thing.