dear my dead......
am in a frozen trance trying to
jot down all that's in my head
donned in forced air of solemnity
and my life time couple: sorrow
i need to borrow a single slice
of our past
and recall our last time together
as memories stream in thick and fast

first i have been spending my sleepless
nights shirtless
struttling aimlessly  the cold kissing
my pale skin
as i uphold one hand on my beardless chin
ogling at the naked night i search your face
among million stars
wishing i could freeze time space
and race to that place your soul rests
even if it means going to mars

at times i stirs from my seize
when i sneeze because of the cold breeze
i toast a beer to your imaginary image
my mind get vintage glimpse of our times
back then in the village
from the land of silent i know you can
hear my thoughts
maybe you hover near enough to see how
my grieve is tied into agonizing knots
    
i try to concentrate on the serenity of darkness
maybe the distraction will make time move faster
and save me from torture of thinking about you
i take another sip and convince myself every
swallow will drown my sorrow and allow me to sleep
i don't know who i am without you ..
you may be away physically but my heart is still with you
in that four by six bed
my time stands still until i see you again