Dear Dad,
Are you proud of me?
This wandering lost soul
Too afraid to let go
I search for you
I see your face as people walk by on the streets
All these pieces of you left
And no instructions to follow
I worry that I’m like you
Not just the good but the bad
The monster that I know you were
And the wonderful dad that I had
Sometimes I sit up at night
I scream and cry up at you
How can you hate a ghost?
I don’t know how but I do
The web of lies that you spun
You left us here to undo
How could someone I love so much
Be this ****** up person I’ve come to know
Then leave us here
No last words of wisdom
No letters of truth
You left me broken and confused
A shell of a person
A lost little girl clinging onto a life she was promised
But never received
I hate that despite all that
I would give anything to have you back
Just one more minute
A little bit more time
Time that was stolen from us
Before you left I thought superheroes existed
But that all went awry when superman died
So I wander
Maybe in time I’ll be able to accept you
All of you and everything you did
Until then I’ll be angry
A sad little kid
Searching for a truth that is mine
All of me is what is left of you
And all I know is the death of you