The heat your cold body brought mine made my insanity run off and hide. to watch your body sway under to hot lights in the gloomy night. oh you painted my being with love. i like to think your brown eyes were mesmerized by my blue ones. the memories of your blonde hair spread out on the pavement sting in my mind. you smelled of daisies. my cigaret buds contrasted against the grass in your backyard. i knew we only had paper thin chances to live on. our luck was bending and breaking. our hope was afraid.

Yet you saved me from myself, even when you were dying.