It's been five or six years..
Still isn't easy without you here.
I wonder if you have been watching me
Seeing the mistake I'm becoming to be..
All I ever wanted was to make you proud
Not you crying down from the clouds.
I've tried to fix it all
But, I can't get back up when I fall.
I'm choosing all the wrong paths
Making all the wrong choices
I'm not the same little girl I once was
I'm not the same little girl you once loved....
On your death bed you said, "She'll be someone amazing."
That unspoken promise we made I wasn't able to keep.
For as you can see - I'm a nothing.
Just a shadow among the unseen.
I've tried to fight
I've even prayed to the earth's light.
All I want is to make you proud
And here you shout my name from the clouds..
Grandpa... I'm trying
"I'm sorry."