I'm scared to get close.
I used to think that the worst thing in life
was to end up alone.
It's not.
The worst thing in life
is to end up with
the person
who makes you feel alone.
and
I hate being alone.
I long to that feeling,
to not feel at all.
The higher I get,
the lower I'll sink.

I ******* drown my demons,
they know how to swim.