It is a vicious cycle you see
you keep everything bottled up because you do not want to hurt people
you do not want to bother them with your petty, useless problems
but then it destroys you on the inside,
so by trying to not destroy and hurt people you end up hurting yourself.
You want to open up and tell someone about the storm in your head
but you push them away right before you hit your breaking point
because you are scared they will not understand,
and you let the storm continue to brew in your mind.
It is a paradox you see, by desperately trying to not ruin someone you ruin yourself but you do not realize because to you you are not a person, you are a mistake.