“Do you ever feel like… um like in a moment you see where you were a year ago and you wonder how you got to where you are and you trace it back, reading through a journal or something and you can’t remember so much it all happened so fast and you wonder if you’ll ever get back the time you lost I barely ever look back but when I do it feels like looking down the other end of a tunnel, where it’s so bright now that it’s hard to see the light that I started out in at the other end.”