breathe
breathe
you just have to breathe
its simple, even babies can do it
so why cant you?
a string tightens around your neck
heart racing,
breath scarce
you dart your hands up
to reieve the pain
yet, where is the rope?
there is none
for it is your own mind
tightening your hair round your neck
yet your hair is draped across your shoulders
not a piece misplaced
your throat on fire
spine tingling
head spinning
trying to just
breathe

open your mouth
call for help
and water spills in
yet your nowhere near water
your mind, its playing even more games
your mind is an assassin
plotting against you
trying to **** you
you let your hands rest
the fingers far beyond numb
and the worst happens:
someone sees you, drowning in air
comes up to you
asks the three words you dread the most
"are you okay?"

you swallow, seeing stars
faintly shake your head
eyes fuzzy, in and out of focus
but somehow
as your hair tightens its grip
and the water trickles into your lungs
you mutter, stutter
"i'm fine" and mannage
with blue lips
purple skin
and red, tear filled eyes
to give a smile
full toothed
praying for this to convince them
that you infact are
even though your drowning

the person nods, patting a shoulder
flashing a smile
and moves on
so you can drown in peace
struggling to breathe
your lungs full of water
throat on fire
tighter than ever
you can feel your hands now
you look down and see your shaking
hands clenched
knuckles white
palms bleeding
but you keep your head up
smile on
your pretty purple face
beautiful blue lips in all
and keep walking
as you turn from dying to dead
a walking corpse.