i've reverted back to the days when i held a permanent position in between the arms of an ugly, paisley patterned easy chair.
i played a game of hide and seek-- hiding from feelings, sought only by others to prove that i had some semblance of humanity lurking behind my blank eyes.
those days were dark, angry as they ate me up, gathering every drop of my existence like a sponge
fast forward: i'm far away and mom says the chair is gone. what should have felt like anguish feels like nothing.
all the feelings are in the chair like coins hidden in the couch cushions, gone before we recognized their existence.
i've reverted back to the days when i held a permanent position in between the arms of an ugly, paisley patterned easy chair,
but now the chair is gone and i am left to soak up the feelings.