1.ask yourself why
years wasted looking into a shattered mirror,
fingers pricked from reaching for things that slipped between the cracks.
2.whisper apologies to your stomach,
tell it that it is welcome here again.
3.Kiss your hipbones goodbye
and promise to never ask so much of them again.
4.thank your ribs
for as long as you pushed against them they never let you get to what was underneath.
they fought to anchor you back down.
5.mend the skin that is littered with scars
it held you together through years of being ripped apart.
6.tell yourself that it's not overnight,
that the transparent girl with boney fingers that cut into you like knives
will be hovering behind you the rest of your life.
7.hear her whispering numbers into your ears,
8.feel the cranks in your brain start churning again,
9.feel yourself getting lighter and life becomes hazy, you're three feet off the ground and it's colder up here, but it makes you feel more awake-
10.turn them off. everyone relapses.
11.start to realize that she is so hollow because there is nothing valuable inside of her.
12.the mirror doesn't look cracked anymore
13.You realize it was your mind that was shattered.