Not in the way that made clear as the glass you shattered, that this was temporary.
Not in the way that I could promise you that every firing neuron in that beautiful brain lights up your eyes like shooting stars. You think like the sky.
Not in the way that came anywhere near answering WHY?
Not in the way that stitched every I love you on the tip of my tongue together into so big a blanket I could swear, you would never feel cold.
Not in the way that apologizes for maps making miles into inches that should only equal minutes But you realize once you're in it, wading through the hearts that could never find their way, objects on maps are further than they appear. Much like the face that i see in the mirror.
I wish I was there. I wish you were here.
I hope you don't hate me
But I'm grateful to the sea.
For catching you gently before rocking you to sleep in the arms of a stranger who in saving you, saved me.
Like I am grateful to light and time and airbags and the dark side of miracles.
I am not a religious person.
But if you dont believe in guardian angels, then I have to believe in mine.
Because I, sellfishly, cannot lose you one more time.
My heart knows my throat like the inside of it's cage because that is where it found you, where I find it when I sit and I miss you, warming the words I always said I'd say.
So until I do,
stay.
If it makes the space seem smaller, I have written you so many unsent letters that if I lay every word down end to end I could build you a bridge that wrapped three times around the moon So we could at least pretend, I'd see you soon.
A bridge, strong enough to hold you and the fifty tons of memories that ware you like waves, Crashing against your ribs in a storm Where no heart is safe.
I'm sorry you wake in sandy sheets That no matter how high you climb there's a beach at your feet.
But not a single broken piece of you will ever be sand no part of your spirit was made from this land.
You are one hundred percent sky spread between two precious hands
And I'm just a star, who followed a bridge to the moon. I'll see you soon. I'll see you soon.