Mar 2015
At the edge
I was too close
now when I see the endless fall
I close my eyes
and strain to breathe
On the packed street
I was all alone
now when people surround me
I shake
and strain to breathe
In the car , sitting behind the wheel
the world started to spin- I had to switch seats
now when I try to drive
the tears drip
and I strain to breathe
Locked in my room
I wonder
why I try to breathe at all
when thoughts- dark and deep
persuade me
*I'm worth nothing at all
I was too close
now when I see the endless fall
I close my eyes
and strain to breathe
On the packed street
I was all alone
now when people surround me
I shake
and strain to breathe
In the car , sitting behind the wheel
the world started to spin- I had to switch seats
now when I try to drive
the tears drip
and I strain to breathe
Locked in my room
I wonder
why I try to breathe at all
when thoughts- dark and deep
persuade me
*I'm worth nothing at all
panic attacks- becoming more and more for me. And after every one I feel so horrible about myself. I'm trying to find something that can relieve these/make them go away.. but not so much luck yet. Might just have to start meds. Anyways.. feedback welcome :)
