The author of my favorite book would’ve never said ‘favorite’ He does talk about sacrifice and really deep things And that word can’t explain any of it. He says we always choose what we can’t have and cry over it But now all that just sounds like a pop song about a pretty girl With flaxen hair and long –long legs figuring out her way I wish my tale was more cinematic, but it is dry as hell. Today is no better than yesterday Just a different shade of sickly blue I deliberately keep avoiding the context of love Because it’s so basal and we’ve refined tastes Or so I think I know little boys don’t think that much and Little girls are told good girls don’t play with fire Wretched, needy begging bowl of a soul Invested too much on a gambler’s lucky streak Now I’ve woken up to an endless sabbatical from relevance I hold on to a smile One that remains long after it’s gone Like the sudden flicker of street lights in a rainy day Doesn’t make a big deal about itself And eyes that don’t melt concrete or anything but Eyes that could make a cold-blooded killer cry And they hoodwinked me Perhaps we’re naked in heaven To make up for all the deception in our lifetime.