Mar 2015
How do you react
When there's cops at your door
Because your mother has called them
And it's the *last thing you think she'll do
How do you react
When the house is full of screaming
And your baby brother crying
He doesn't understand
He doesn't even know how to talk yet
How do you react
When anything you do isn't enough
Yet you try with all your power
With all your heart and will
It just seems lost for nothing
How do you react
When you feel a whip burn in your leg
Or your head smashed into the wall
When you're bleeding and broken
And alone
When you did nothing wrong
How do you react
As a child around drunks at a party
Who should be in bed
Was almost laid in bed
By a man who smelt of liquor
How do you react
When everyone is laughing
Not with you but at you
At the way you look
At the way you talk
How do you react
When your arms and legs are full of scars
And you've bled out everything but these things
And when people ask
You're too ashamed to admit it
How do you react
When all the pain you have went numb
When the pills take it's toll
And you've gone numb
How do you react
When the one closest to you dies
And you didn't say goodbye
And the world feels lost without them
How do you react
When salt water leaks from your eyes
You don't know why
And you can't say why
Because all you do is choke on your own words
Every night
It's numbing
And that's all it is
Because all of it has chipped away
Everything is numb
My reaction went numb
I've felt
Anger
And sadness
And loss
And helplessness
I've felt
Nothing
*But it's okay, you see
There are people that care
There are people to love
People that love you
Sometimes it's not their time in your life
Those people come and go
I've felt *happiness
Even though I'm scared
Even though I don't know how to react
Even though I'm insecure
Even though I know I don't know everything
It's all a process
I am stronger
I am capable of being loved and giving love
I am open to life
I am open to it's struggles
I will be brave
I will be selfless
I will be kind
I am me
So let me ask you this,
*How do you react?
When there's cops at your door
Because your mother has called them
And it's the *last thing you think she'll do
How do you react
When the house is full of screaming
And your baby brother crying
He doesn't understand
He doesn't even know how to talk yet
How do you react
When anything you do isn't enough
Yet you try with all your power
With all your heart and will
It just seems lost for nothing
How do you react
When you feel a whip burn in your leg
Or your head smashed into the wall
When you're bleeding and broken
And alone
When you did nothing wrong
How do you react
As a child around drunks at a party
Who should be in bed
Was almost laid in bed
By a man who smelt of liquor
How do you react
When everyone is laughing
Not with you but at you
At the way you look
At the way you talk
How do you react
When your arms and legs are full of scars
And you've bled out everything but these things
And when people ask
You're too ashamed to admit it
How do you react
When all the pain you have went numb
When the pills take it's toll
And you've gone numb
How do you react
When the one closest to you dies
And you didn't say goodbye
And the world feels lost without them
How do you react
When salt water leaks from your eyes
You don't know why
And you can't say why
Because all you do is choke on your own words
Every night
It's numbing
And that's all it is
Because all of it has chipped away
Everything is numb
My reaction went numb
I've felt
Anger
And sadness
And loss
And helplessness
I've felt
Nothing
*But it's okay, you see
There are people that care
There are people to love
People that love you
Sometimes it's not their time in your life
Those people come and go
I've felt *happiness
Even though I'm scared
Even though I don't know how to react
Even though I'm insecure
Even though I know I don't know everything
It's all a process
I am stronger
I am capable of being loved and giving love
I am open to life
I am open to it's struggles
I will be brave
I will be selfless
I will be kind
I am me
So let me ask you this,
*How do you react?
