bringing forth
dark memories
from dark depths
where i had stowed them

i thought they were prisoners
of my will
how i was wrong

i bow down to them
the murky and depressing
they seize my heart
my body and my soul

i am bound
with chains of memories
to a wall of sadness

chains with the strength
of diamond
a wall as sturdy
as titanium

and i can only hope
that one day
my mind will be merciful

i can only hope
that one day
it will allow me freedom
to live
love and laugh

i can only hope
that one day
it will stop fighting
itself

but for now
i can only dream
about a day
without feeling
a numb stupor

but for now
i can only dream
about a night
without being haunted
by memories

nightmares
about how i became
a creature
of the shadows

questioning
how did i become
a slave
to the darkness