She was holding on to a man broken every gesture made, every word spoken was a desperate cry from a place so deep that he can only reach it in his sleep
she holds him together so the pieces don’t fly away keeping her balance as he kneels to pray sometimes he sees her, sometimes he doesn’t sometimes he lives in his past, sometimes his present
she implored, she beseeched she tried action, she tried speech ‘if you cannot love me, let me know if you will not love me, let me go’
But he holds on, as if holding on for dear life as if he is drowning and every stroke is in strife as if she is the only thing keeping him afloat as if she was every single word he ever wrote
and his eye remains to the shore - someplace clear but far it seems within reach yet more distant than a star
more and more it appears an exercise in futility finally admitting it is beyond her ability she drops to her knees, eyes up to the Master trying to prevent her heart’s impending disaster
the weight is so heavy, so hard to bear hope only comes in the form of a prayer with hardship comes ease, promises the Beloved but try as she might, she cannot rise above it
despairingly close to losing all hope, she implored her tender hands bleeding from the double-edged sword would letting go bring relief or a tortuous void? would her heart remember the previously enjoyed?
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~ epilogue:
Then one quiet night upon an angel’s wing she heard a voice that only an angel can bring somewhere between a sigh and a scream somewhere within a half-awakened dream
She watched him float above the ocean waves his feathered wings skimming the waters surface catching rays of sunlight into pristine prisms a radiant reflection of blue-green and turquoise
From the edge of clouds, he finally spoke and his words became a poem singing sweetly behind smiling eyes gliding together over the ocean foam