dressed from head to toe in all black he shades the ground he walks on piercing blue eyes and hair of twilight madness the desire to leave this asylum of boredom burns strong in his carefully caged heart yet he lingers like a piece of lint on fabric there’s something holding him back perhaps it’s the smell of hazy pollution or it’s the comforting shadows of tall figures
or perhaps it’s the arms around his frame who think they know him best
tugging him from the unknown down into the crevices of his childhood down down down down down down
down
down
the thing is he thinks he is not so far down that he can’t stand again he knows that his legs work and he know his city by heart knows every street sign and every gutter knows every turn and every crack in the black sidewalks
but he’s tired of knowing he wants to not no and the unknown is what entices him draws him to his boots and to his nearly
empty
bag he waits til night where it blendsin with black city he’s just another bug crawling through the dirt now it’s quiet but the silence hurts his ears and clouds his mind it’s too loud he has no map because he does not know where to begin he just follows the stars laid out before his black city and attaches his blue eyes to the brightest white and walks forward forward forward
backward one last look will he come back he doesn’t want to know
the nights are comforting, reminding him of the place he left behind the days are long and hot hot, an unfamiliar feeling that crawls from his ankles to his brow one long creature of perspiration leaving a trail of novelty behind him
he’s now a crow against the white clouds white, not grey white, not black bright, not dark bright, it hurts his eyes! squeeze them tight and wait a few more hours wait just wait and it’ll be over how was he to know of this blinding backdrop he wasn’t
at night when he rests he barely lights a fire the flames too hot and bright like the day he dreads tomorrow
he feels exposed and vulnerable now in the clear, wavering air he doesn’t like it he didn’t know
he decides he doesn’t like the sun he decides he likes the sun it provides a penetrating stare he’s not used to not the shifty eyes and downturned faces he is but it’s so hot and it hurts his skin his eyes his eyes that never knew light, bright white light the sight he needs but doesn’t want to know anymore
he needs this he needs to know more he needs
he doesn’t know what he needs
he continues down the uncarved path and doesn’t look behind him afraid that if he does he will turn and go back to the knowing world he forces his feet to pound the stones and keep walking walking he already knows how to walk
there are some things that he can’t let go of those things that he knows and knows how to do them they will always be with him he knows how to walk to talk to breathe to sleep to eat to drink to sit to stand
to run
running from the knowing running to the unknown run run run keep running
stop what’s that a lonely other figure standing beside him it’s a dark shade coloring the white ground beneath him it takes awhile for him to realize that it’s his shadow cast from the burning star above he revels in this newfound companionship he’s found a piece of himself on this path he’s found something he knows amazing how something so starkingly beautiful can come from something he’s learned to hate this unknown balance has him smiling
he wants it to rain wants to feel the cooling sensation that horripilation that awakens him from momentary slumber
he wants the wind that invisible force that pushes and pulls him in all directions
he wants darkness back not just a wanderer that follows his every move
he misses it, that vast city that bathes its citizens in calming blackness in dark knowing
he pushes forward forward into the deep white abyss of places foreign and things unrecognizable
the unknown is tantalizing and only the tantalizing can be clever enough to catch its victims in a web of ugly misconceptions unlike the black knowing miles from his feet miles and miles and miles
his spine bends as he avoids the gaze of the sun careful or it will bend permanently like the fuzzy shadow under his eyes
bring more light and more unrecognizable things he only knew of black and different greys but there are more much more
he comes to a giant pool of water with which the rim is far beyond the point of existing he’s never known this much water all at once
he continues to walk he does not know how to move his arms or his legs in such a fashion and soon he’s buried deep within the pool
there’s a heavy silence and a sinking feeling he’s doesn’t move but falls into the comforting darkness into the unknown