You told me you love me.
You told me im beautiful
You told me im almost perfect.
You told me im the most beautiful girl you've ever met
You told me im hot
You told me im important
You told me you cared
You told me you will always be there.
I just smiled.
You told me you love my smile
You said you love everything about me.
But then you wondered.

'Why doesnt she believe me.'

You dont see the things that I see in the mirror, boy.
You dont see the pimples.
You dont see the dark circles
You dont see my big stomach
You dont see the scars in my thighs
You dont know what I think about myself.

Now, you know the reason.

life is nothing, but a tragedy.

another day not well spent because of you
its always you, and i hope you knew.
but you don't. you will never will.
because i will never tell.

Suddenly you showed up
In my doorstep wearing your faded cobain shirt
and your ***** blonde hair was so messy
and you seriously smell like a ******* beer.
you look so tired and you look so careless.

Its our day.
I had a flashback or everything we've done.
You smiled at me and said
"don't worry I'm not drunk. Id probably remember everything tomorrow."
probably? probably.
Suddenly I can feel it, love is slowly falling out of your vocabulary. And

its tearing me apart.
Then I realized… you're slowly falling out of my heart.

"Truth will set you free"
"Truth will set us free"

is that real? is that true
truth will set us free? maybe
but tell me

am i suppose to believe that if im trapped?
trapped because of the truth?

TRUTH WILL SET US FREE?

then why am i trapped in this lonely world full of truths
why am i trapped in this mind full of truths
why am i suffering because i know the truth
why am i hurt
why cant i find my way out even though i know the truth
why is the truth hurting me so much, that it wont let me go away
why?
why am i trapped?
why am i trapped if the truth will set us free

The truth will set us free, or.....*not

You totally forgot about me
And I just let it be
You're now completely happy
And I'm just happy, temporarily.

To be honest, I'm happy that you are happy,
But don't you know that you're happiness is hurting someone else?

Dont you know that you're happy, but someone else is broken
broken and thinking about her words unspoken.
Yup, her. The one who's hurting is her.
I know youre  wondering now.
The show is over, take a bow.

Wait I just want you to know that
the her im talking about is me.
Do you give a ****? Yes, no, or maybe?

Stomach ache
Stomach ache
I'll flash a smile, they wont notice its fake.
Stomach pain
Stomach pain
I'll force myself its fine, because i dont wanna gain.
Stomach ache
Stomach ache
I will do whatever it takes
Stomach pain
Stomach pain
Stop, not again.
Stomach ache
Stomach ache
Im going to control myself, for Pete's sake.
Stomach pain
Stomach pain
I know im insane
But you cant stop me, never again.
Because by feeling such PAINS and ACHES
Makes me stronger, and Im strong enough to handle this.
I am not the slave of my body.

                                           *P.D

you wont lose him i promise.

[ because you cant lose someone you never had ]

you cant keep him. im sorry.

[ because you cant keep someone who's not yours ]

you wont get him

[ because you cant get someone who runs away. ]