i want to say i love you

but i keep it to goodnight

because love means

f
   a
    l
       l
         i
           n
               g

and you're afraid of heights

*(well you said so)

why?
why do people fall for the wrong guy?
i mean can't we just fall in love with a guy whos always gonna be there for us?
the guy who wont leave us.
why do we need to fall for the wrong one?
like, we could just like someone and that someone will like us back,
and thats it.
Everybody happy.
like you won't leave each other.
why do we have to call them the wrong ones if we can fall for them and make them the right one, right?
and just keep on falling in love with them
over and over again.
thats better right? well atleast for me.

you dont know pain
unless you're staring at a mirror
hair in your face
tears coming out from your eyes
thinking about giving up,
maybe a few fresh cuts.
and you're begging yourself to stay strong
to not give up

have you ever begged yourself?

*I did.

Her
its been an ugly day...

Him
and?

Her
tell me something beautiful


He whispers her name.

i have this urge to cut somewhere in the artroom, someone saw me and said
"dont you know that can **** you?"

i was shocked but all i can say was "i know."

"then why are you doing it? you could die."

i gave him a blank look and said

"maybe, thats the point."

stuck
i wanna call it stuck
because even though it ****
here i am giving a ****
i shouldn't be crying
i shouldn't be caring
is this a game
that would make me lame
in where you'll say you like me
and then whisper
Atleast you think i do
Oh gosh, i badly want to press a button
that says undo
if only i could
i probably would.
you are pretentious
i though you were precious
foods  are delicious
thank god, it takes away the anxious.