I don't long for you
I never have
Your love was always enough
It filled me up from the very first day

I never miss you
Because we never met
and we never parted
Yet I cherish you every second of everyday

I am eternally grateful
to have you
to love unconditionally,
to admire,
To treasure wholly
With no need for reassurance

I'm going to stop loving you..
because I'm loosing control.
Over myself..
Over what I do and say to you.

My demons are creeping up
Telling me lies about you
Clouding my judgment
I don't know what to belive in anymore

You pull me close
You push me back
You say you love me
Yet you don't want me to stay

For every step you take towards me
I rush to you like a wave to surround you with my love
Till you step back to take a break
And leave me longing for just one touch

You pull me towards the heavens
Only to drop me back slowly
And I'm waiting here looking up
For another chance
It takes a while to feel the pain
But the heart ache never stops

Love is cruel
Just to me
It leaves you unscathed
Will I ever learn my lesson
Will this be the last time ?
How long should I keep trying and failing
For this feeling the stop ?

You can't miss what you've never had.
but i miss you already.
your tiny fingers, your round face,
with tiny lips that smile sweetly.
when you wriggle in my tummy
poking me with your hand or leg
i can't not imagine what you are like.
i already miss you
cant wait to meet you.

will you have your fathers eyes
or a tiny mouth like mine
will you love wholeheartedly
will you understand the things you see

i hope you are like your father
trusting, honest and the things what all men should be
i hope you are like me as well
silly , happy and glee
no matter who you are like
im sure youll be wonderful and as perfect as can be

im sure you're the cutest baby the world has ever seen
and will be the smartest boy ever.

i cant wait to meet you baby,
cant wait to see you grow up.
when you go to school i promise to be proud of you no matter what.
when you're older i promise to love you the same,
more than all our relatives, more than your father,
ill always love you the most.

love keeps you going..
it frees you… releases you… turns your world around…
coddles you…  nurtures you…  makes you glee…
love keeps you going…
it transforms you… converts you.. till you forget yourself…
slowly engulfs you… wraps you tight.. till u can't breathe..
love keeps you going…
torments you.. encumbers you…. makes you desperate…
breaks you…. hurts you… makes you bleed inside…
and still…. only love  keeps you going….

A thousand times I've sworn.
To never let you in again,
To hold you back,
And be my own.

A thousand times I've sworn,
To be more than I can,
As if Love can mend no pain,
As if my world can be whole again.

A thousand times I've sworn,
Knowing I will swear again,
Pretending its alright,
pretending there's nothing to gain.

A thousand times I've sworn,
Not loosing hope in love,
In life, in the dreams we've borne,
without which life is without dawn.

One more time I swear,
That no relationship is fair,
till reality hits,
And the word I isn't there.

Every night i slowly burn,
for all day can't give into sorrow.
Awaiting for that day to come,
with dreams of a better tomorrow.
I rest my eyes with a silent prayer,
for that day , that promised land.
To deliver me from this unfortunate dream,
and regain faith in my stand.

சொந்தங்களின் ஆழம் பிரிவில் தெரியும் ஏன்பர்....
ஆழம் ஏனும் அளவுகோல் நமக்கு அவசியய்ம் இல்லை... ஏனினும் இப்பிரிவின் பாரம் ஏனோ குறையவில்லை......
நீ அருகில் இருக்கையில்......
தனிமையிலும் என் அடையாளம் அறிந்தேன், இப்போது என் குடும்பத்துடன் இருக்கையிலும் துலைந்தே போகிறேன்...
தனிமையிலும் முழுமை கண்டேன்.. தற்போது தொழமையிலும் தனிமையே உனைர்கிறேன்.....
-உன் வருகை எனும் வசந்தம் வரும் நாளை நம்பி ஆறுதல் அடைகின்ற உன்னவள்....


i wrote this in tamil.. so the translation might not be so great..
here goes...

separation

the depth of a relationship is felt in separation...
we don't need any measurement of depth,
yet the pain of this separation is no less....
when you are near...
even in desolation i know my identity,now
even with my family i'm still lost...
i was complete even in desolation,now
i am lonely even in companionship..
- I am yours; awaiting the spring of your arrival