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eli Mar 2020
i hate myself so much
eli Mar 2020
you said life is like mountains and valleys,

ups and downs.


you said you want me to be on a mountain and not in the valleys.


“i’m like on the bottom, slowly getting up and falling every now and then.”


god i wish i had stayed in that spot.




it’s been one day.



i’ve fallen off the mountain and i don’t have the energy to get back up
eli Mar 2020
i don’t ever wanna wake up
just wanna fall asleep and never wake up
eli Mar 2020
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eli Mar 2020
can i just disappear without coming back?
eli Mar 2020
everything hurts and i don’t know what to do
eli Mar 2020
i wanna pin you up against the wall and see where that takes us
#9
eli Oct 2019
#9
To be honest,

I've had my eyes on you since school ended last year.

I just didn't know how to tell you.
eli Mar 2020
your hoodie is warm and cozy

it reminds me of you



i love you
eli Mar 2020
you’re not okay but it’s fine yknow it’s not like you accept my help anyway
eli Mar 2020
the acid in my stomach is ****** and it ******* hurts dude
eli Mar 2020
your mom said she thinks i’m a good friend
that’s enough for me
eli Mar 2020
i got grounded for telling him how i felt.


about how it feels like he doesn’t care

about how he’s gone



i get yelled at constantly,


is this what love feels like?
if so, i don’t ever want to feel it
eli Mar 2020
weekends are supposed to be fun


i’m breaking my back in tears over the weekend
eli Mar 2020
now i have a headache

i can’t do this anymore


i want to die
eli Mar 2020
let’s move in together


let’s move into a cottage,


i’ll wake up early and make you heart shaped waffles and we can have goats and chickens.


i’ll plant you strawberries and make jams for you


i’ll have a cupboard of tea in case you don’t feel well


i’ll plant flowers so i can give them to you every morning when you wake up
eli Mar 2020
kefir is disgusting
eli Sep 2019
Normally, they're in person,

Right?

No.

These-

These were online.

"Why didn't you block them?"

"There's a block button y'know?"

I know.

But once they consume you in their life,

Once they shut you down,

Once they make you believe that they're all you need in your life,

The block button doesn't exist.

I just wanted to force myself to think that someone actually loved me.

-

I am not your toy.
.
I will never be your toy.
.
I will not let you force me to date your fiance.
.
I will not let you force me to date you just so you could cheat on my best friend.

No.
.
No.
.
No.
.
I am not your toy.
.
I will never be your toy.
.
I am an independent person.
.

I

.

Will

.

Never

.

Be

.

Your

.

Toy

.
eli Jan 2020
alexander was it?

yes its me again.

ready to make some ******* **** themselves again


**** GET HIM OUT PLEASE
eli Jan 2020
datinf

you are

mhm.








i knew you never loved me anyway
eli Jan 2020
I believe the lies you tell

because I want to believe that you're okay.


I know you're not okay.


I know you're hurting.


Just- please tell me so I can help you.




You know I can't lose someone else.
eli Jan 2020
I love you?
From : Dear Evan Hansen, the musical
eli Sep 2019
I play the violin.

I am in the "advanced" orchestra.

Tomorrow,

I must audition for the regional orchestra.

This is hurting me.
eli Feb 2020
we are crackheads
we are not cis
we are not straight

we like messing around
and going on mall dates.

we ate,
we ran,

but i really dont want this fun to end.

she laughs,

she cries.


he laughs,

he cries.


we're having fun

on this small mall date.
jay - casper/bethany
eli Feb 2020
tbh all classes with treavor are hectic

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