so many words resonate with me;
in music,
poems,
movies,
and in my mind.

but i cant seem to
write them down anymore.

everyone i know has betrayed me
in some way.
every time something goes right,
it all goes wrong again.

there's too much on my mind
to organize it into beautiful words.

so here i lie,
pouring my heart out,
yet there's still more i want to say.

i should've said those words.
i should've told you everything
on my mind.
i regret that you don't know
how i felt.

now it's all up in the air
i never got the closure
i deserved.
not that i need it;
but you're still on my mind

nothing good though,
if you're wondering.

i hate how i felt disposable,
useless,
a burden.
i hate how you favored
other people over me.
i hate how you left me for her.
i hate you.

i never felt safe with you
and i want you to know that.

sometimes i think
i resented you so much
that it felt like love

i do not weep
because i'm unhappy
i weep because i have everything
yet i am unhappy