For nights on end,
I thought about the questions you failed to answer
questions you failed to know about
but i took everything within me to ask them now
i wish i never opened that window of conversations
i would not be hurting right now

"So can you please tell me why you feel like this?", she asked
"It's when-"
"You know how-"
"Have you ever just-"
...nothing

how do you explain the pain you don't understand?
when all you want to do is make it stop
How do you stop the pain that just creeps up on you?
How do you talk about the pain that comes back to **** you when spoken about?
how do you explain the unexplainable?

"You ever have those days where-"
"Do you ever feel like-"
"Or maybe ever just-"
... forget it

it's like maybe the aching doesn't exist to anyone if it isn't said aloud
the pain doesn't come back for more when its left alone
but for the love of everything good,
i wish it'd stop coming back to me

Because of you, the words "i love you" mean nothing
the three words i cherished the most
now hurt the most to hear

Because of you, it hurts to wear my black ring
because all i see when i close my eyes
is your smile from the day it was given to you

Because of you, i am scared of love
scared to give up on us
because i grew to love you
and ended up falling in love with you

But you don't fall out of love
and this is how i know you never fell in love in the first place
this wouldn't be easy for you
if you had fallen with me