See please, if you have not yet,
http://hellopoetry.com/poem/594328/this-filled-a-need-i-had-no-name-for/
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got myself in trouble,
found me a problem
all of my own making/creating,
all my own to solve,
all by my lonesome
put/found myself
in a room with no exit at all,
only bookshelves upon the wall
with bookshelves full of
great poets who when they wrote,
they filled a need that had no name
said to myself,
how am I going to
get out of here,
or
find a space for me on that bookshelf?
or both?
this new standard, self-imposed,
discovering, exposing, sensing,
filling the aches and hopes
with a new satisfaction
it occurs me this is the precise atomic second
that if, can place the keystone,
then, can build the edifice,
floor by floor,
room by room,
poem by poem
so, trapped in this electronic/platonic youthful room,
a room with too many words,
but none mine,
my problem begins
so I have begun to solve my own one-problem,
alpha bet, word, line, stanza, poem,
one at a time
and never post what never meets the highest
standard of mine own creation,
fulfill
*the need you did not know needs filling
I have drowned in the geyser up, the waterfall down of too many poems. I have decided to post less, but hopefully better. I will read more but say less.
I will be among those anonymous reads,
of whom, oft wondered,
who are you, you, who read and move on
with a nary a moment to comment or like, or dislike?
Look for my messages tho, for via stealth technology, I will be present here.
To write special, and leave special on the table, my goal now.
From here on, I write for me and to the highest standard, expecting to fail, hoping to succeed.
Knowing this:
I define success when I put the pen down,
having left breath ,tears, a poet's and a child's dream, and sweet perfume
as the residue. Those of you, the readers, who come along, treasured but fewer, share my meal and leave the table satisfied and tell me too,
that you too write to me,
you will fill a need that we did not know needed filling,
One poem at a time.
*“Get yourself in trouble. If you get yourself in trouble, you don't have the answers. And if you don't have the answers, your solution will more likely be personal because no one else's solutions will seem appropriate. You'll have to come up with your own.”
"society is much too problem-solving oriented. It is far more interesting to [participate in] ‘problem creation’ … You know, ask yourself an interesting enough question and your attempt to find a tailor-made solution to that question will push you to a place where, pretty soon, you’ll find yourself all by your lonesome — which I think is a more interesting place to be."*
― Chuck Close*