it's three in the morning and
for the first time in so long,
the silence that rings in my ears doesn't remind me to think of you.
hours ago, i wondered when I would stop thinking-
when I would stop thinking of you.
yet now I feel strong.
now i feel like I could spend
three seconds, minutes, hours
being tortured by the silence and I'd be unphased.
I'd be unaware of you.

My leaf is still okay
Like our friendship will be someday

Green and vibrant
Who said I was violent?

No one, but a daisy
Delicate and lazy

The world is mad, how we live like this
What makes us need to hurt instead of kiss?

Down the line,
The world is divine

Worthless but great
Forever, ending in fate

Longing for freedom
Longing for peace
Longing for calm
Longing for ease

Longing for anything to disrupt this pain
This pain that just won't stop
It won't stop
Just ******* stop!
I'm tired of you
Please go away
All this pain you're causing me
Just can't seem to fade
I'm longing for strength
I'm longing for something to get me through
I'm longing for the ability to finally wake
From this nightmare I am done with
What am I saying, I don't deserve a break,
The quality of my actions aren't enough
Just ******* shake
this feeling out from inside of me
I am no where near getting better
I am alone, don't you agree?


I've longed for worth
I've longed for meaning
I've longed too long for happiness