Tenho saudades tuas
I honestly didn't choose this
but you came into my life
made me feel so alive
my heart beats me and's leaving bruises

Tenho saudades tuas
Ive never been so useless
it all felt like a dream
tell me, what does it mean?
I'm running this race just to lose it

Tenho saudades tuas
all my hard work has been fruitless
I hope you're okay
but, your staying away
has chipped a whole block from my hubris
I just wish I knew why you do this

why is it bad
to fall in love
why is it bad
to fall in love
twice
at the same time?
they say
that three is the perfect number
so why must it be that
true love must be two
one ME one YOU
as if somehow
three is untrue?
I don't know what consensual means to you
but to me it's not just ******
it's about trust and I think I know what the hell  I want
it's not conventional
but why are you sad
when I'm clearly happy this way

I don't know what
I'm supposed to do
due to  you
being over there,    practically
on the moon
you're so far away  
         but I swear
I swear baby, soon
   all this ******* will decay
      into grey soot,
the ashtray will be full of it.  
soon we'll have our own life to live
and feel ALIVE
for once,
and we will not only survive
but we will prosper
     you don't have to be a martyr because frankly
  you're the one who keeps me sane through all this mess
and ******* pain
          and  even though ****'***** the fan and
even though we have no plan
   and even though  no on  gives  a ****
I give a *******
        I love you that's all I know
     it's gonna be
so worth it

I've never been good with metaphors
but you are
(by far)
so if I try and liken you
to a rose, or a star, or some wind,
I'm afraid you'll  just find it cliché
when in reality, I don't know how to say        that
you're the most beautiful creature
and if you
had thorns, I'd still hold you
just as tightly as I do now
        that
you've given me light,
life, and
i can easily locate your mouth
in the dark
                            that
you have more power over my life
  than you realize
you put stars in my eyes
and knocked
me to the ground
but I know you know
I love you
because I never miss the second round
even though
I can't very well
compare you (without the use of "like" or "as")
to anything clever  without sounding dumb
I think you are aware  
of where I'm coming from
I'm in awe of you
and I've succumbed