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It’s just me and my mindless indulgence
we throw one hell of a party for two
my apologies ahead of time for calling
the toxins always brought me to you
after all this is the mess you loved to lay with
this is the boy you always wanted to be with
I haven’t seen him in some years now
every since my troubles caught up and threw him out
from time to time he still comes around
shows up buzzed and happy, gets drunk and eventually falls down
the way she cared well it really scared me
that girl she made me feel everything when she spoke to or touched me
most will spend their whole lives looking for what we had instantly
but now the time has gone and left us nothing
nothing more than a home in these pages
a story to never be told but one for the ages
a girl with a thief of a smile
a boy made victim by it
the kind of attraction you don’t encounter in real life
you know the type
it makes an artist paint, a musician sing and a writer write
the type of love that inspires beauty and it was all mine
even though you never were this memory is all mine
You are no longer asleep, but there's  no way you can be awake.
Being awake doesn't feel like this.
Being alive doesn't feel this cold.
Your eyes are open.
Your heart is beating.
Your blood is pumping.
But there is nothing to see,
There is no drive to your heart.
It's running on fumes of empty hope.
Your blood is intoxicated with lies.
It no longer flows life.
You are the living dead.
Full of organs.
Capable of physical expression.
Dead of purpose, meaningless in intention.
Here is to you,
The living dead.
It has been a very long time since I have written creatively. I feel I've lost my spark! This is my first attempt at getting back on the saddle.
Why is it so hard
To find someone
Who always make me want to smile
And always think about them
Drawing pictures on my bedroom floor

Why is it so hard
To feel the feeling that I really want to feel
It’s just physical attraction
And it really doesn’t go

Nothing
It’s just nothing
I’m numb
I’m torn
I’m unsure

Nothing
I want something
But this heart of mine
Just won’t let you in.

I’m gonna kiss you in the bedroom
Hold your hand when we’re alone
But never show my love
Anywhere that’s not behind
Closed doors

I hope that one day
We could
Go together
Somewhere far away
And I’ll realize
That you’re the one
I want here to stay
But for now I’m feeling

nothing
It’s just nothing
I’m numb
I’m torn
I’m not sure

Nothing
I want to feel something
But this heart of mine
Just won’t let you in.

It’s not you
It’s me
That old cliché
I forever wish I could
Feel the same way

It’s physical attraction
but my heart is set emotion
I’m hurting you
And all I feel is

Nothing
It’s nothing
I’m numb
I’m torn
I’m not sure

Nothing
I want something
But this heart of mine
Just won’t let you in.

Why is it so hard
To find someone
Who always make me want to smile
And always think about them
Drawing pictures on my bedroom floor.
To me it feels like a worm
Wiggling its way
Through my bloodstream,
Making it icy and cold
And my heart turn
To frigid emotion.

It makes its way into my
Mind,
Slowing the thoughts
In some parts,
But giving the other parts,
The nervous parts,
The parts that hyperventilate
And have panic attacks,
Caffiene.

Breathing gets hard
Because
I'm underwater,
Or underground.
Buried alive,
Or sinking slowly.

I.
Can't.
Breathe.

The worm,
The worst part about the worm?
It feeds on my life.
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