Deep brown eyes like a rich cup of coffee.
She was always warm too;
I could tell more by her aura than a touch.
She was always sweet and sparkling,
it showed in her genuine grin.
I'm ever grateful that in my panic
of first learning the people of a foreign place,
her coffee eyes were the first I met.
She guided me into sunshine serenity;
inside I've kept notice ever since.

why did i let cigarettes become so insignificant?
a craving for smoke in my lungs
sitting on the steps taking breaths closer to death
life never rings true to me
if i die then i will let the earth take me in

everyday since i first met you
i've felt effortless
my chest expanded to feel love
so whenever i start to miss you
i put tar in my lungs
or sometimes i'll get drunk
no matter what there's always poems
or half-thought-out feelings scratched in journals
i lose myself in toxic clouds
just hoping to wind up closer to you

-newportsmooths h.g. December 21, 2014 5:28am

thirsty for authority, i've never seen
evil like that in the eyes of a mother
taken by some force or demon
power doesn't build us
but that's what it taught her
an addiction to loathing the loving
craving something to create fuel for pain
losing grip on the concept of right
a stranger within the one who raised me
i saw it slip away
and dear ******* god i'm terrified

-newportsmoothe h.g. December 27, 2014 12:15am

I carry you with me in the pages
leather bound pieces of my love
scratched in sleepless nights
I keep you in my journal
you lie between the lines
of every poem I've written
you've sat restless in my mind
my thoughts are scattered
but you're always in focus

-newportsmooths h.g.  December 5, 2014 6:09pm

3am and I want a cigarette and for someone to hold me as I keep in mind that I will survive this, and I will never be the only one awake in the world.
it's all ******* beautiful but things are getting weird.
I spend hours imagining the perspective of how the asphalt suffers;
I would guess it feels something like I do,
or at least how I used to.
the cracks in the road expand with the frozen water.
useless and dangerous,
they are the cracks in my head.
the only one driving is insanity
I watched it crash,
**** the earth's humanity

-newportsmooths h.g. December 7, 2014 2:58 AM

I really need someone to protect me right now.

I wouldn’t say I’m in danger, but I sure as hell don’t feel safe in this place.

Her stares spoke volumes of character, and dear god I’m scared.

I’d love to run away; it doesn’t matter where.

All that I know has shown I’m not welcome here.

I’d live in a coffin just to escape her.

I’d probably find a better night's rest there.



-newportsmooths h.g. December 7, 2014 5:23pm