Something has taken hold of you
Possessed your very soul
Stepped in and started changing you
Everything you know

A heavy veil has been lifted
From your blinded eyes
You see the world so differently
Have changed so much inside

A new creature you've become
With a tender heart
Watch love grow inside of you
All your hate depart

It's love that's taken hold of you
So beautifully demanding
It's what grows inside of you
Surpasses all understanding

A peace I find when I'm alone
And no one else is near
Renews my soul,  clears my mind
And chases away my fears

I am free to explore my world
Find out what makes it turn
I come here to this quiet place
And find so much to learn

I find myself when I am here
What is hidden in my heart
I once again find the strength
I need to stand alone
My Solitude and I
Will never part.

What we believe and what is
Are they different things
The question is an age old one
So many of us bring

All of this that surrounds you
Where did it come from
The answer lies there in your heart
Call out and it will come

Inside your heart there lies the key
To unlock the gate
Look inside of what you feel
And why you hesitate

Go ahead and close your eyes
To all that is foreseen
Soon you'll see with all your heart
And believe in things unseen

Sitting at my desk so many nights
With ink of black and paper white
Reflecting on my pain and joy
I look into my very soul and write

Sometimes I wonder if anyone understands
What it is I am trying to say
Do I truly express my joy and pain
And do they share those feelings I convey

Do they cry with me when they read my pain
Like I cried when I wrote it down
And do they smile at the joy I share
About the love that I have found

Do they feel my loss and joy like they feel their own
When they read the words I write
With ink of black on paper white
So many, many nights.

I can only hope that my joy is felt
When the words I write are read
As is my pain and loss
And that at least one reading them will understand
How much baring ones soul can cost

You are all I need,
when you look at me,  I am invincible.  
Hold me closer,
no need to chase,
more than once you have loved me
under the skies of yourself.

A mere whim would never
change my mind
but you wake me up
when your face
searches for release
in my eyes.

You are to the whole of my being
every moment I place
as precious
with the ink of my pen.  

I cannot let a single day go by
without touching the sands
we call ours
when they appear on the shores
of every part of me.  

You are all I need,
when you look at me, I am invincible.  
Hold me closer, your arms whisper
the rhythm of me.  

No need to chase, come and hold me
under the skies of yourself.
I want to linger here
Enclosed
in the love we make.

Where is this place I find myself
What is this I try to do
Erasing images burned in my heart
That I have of you

The pictures of a scene of bliss
The smile upon your face
A look there in the eyes I love
Has to have a place

The very thought that I could just
Remove you from my mind
Much less this heart that loves you
Is insanity defined

So I will keep you where you are
Forever and a day
Hold you close inside my heart
You I can't erase

In your eyes I feel invincible
So powerful and strong
You see me as I want to be
You hear my true song

You see the fighter that I am
The warrior proud and free
In your eyes I am everything
I ever want to be

It makes me stronger every day
And that strength it grows
In every way

Just to know
That you see me
As the one I want to be

A magical world has been opened
Such beauty now I can see
I have been breathed upon
And my pen will not let me be

There aren't enough words to describe
The feelings that come rushing in
Each time that I hear your voice
I find myself here with my pen

Eloquent words I use to express
The changes wrought here in my soul
I have been breathed upon
And my pen to this paper it goes

If I find that I have to write
Forever a day and a night
To express just how beautiful
You make me feel
No doubt, with my pen, I will

Why let a new heart shine on me
When mine is not to give
My heart still belongs to you
And without yours cannot live

I cannot let another soul
Near this heart of mine
Because it still belongs to you
No love here will they find

How can I continue in this pain
Of living without you
When I can’t share my heart with anyone
Even the one it belongs to

I cannot grow here in your shade
I will surely die
I can't reach up or branch out
As there is no sun in sight

Each time I reach up to touch the sky
Your branches hold me down
I can't breathe in any air
There's no air around

My roots curl up against me now
They have no room to grow
Yours have taken all our soil
I'll soon die I know

Why can't we just exist as two
Here separately together
Stand up proudly side by side
And both live here forever

Such an ethereal vision we have here
In this we call our own
As if untouched by human hands
Like nothing ever known

If perfection existed in this time
This we have would be
In this special world of ours
Shared by you and me

Whatever reason would we have
To mar the face of it
To please the world and change it all
So that in this world we fit

Does anything make you feel guilty?
Such as memories that drift in and out of your mind
or perhaps, the sinful taste of chocolate.
What about when you reach up to touch,
the marble steps where your pride once walked.  

She thought you knew her heart was breaking
still she would be waiting for you
with purple ink seeping from her pores.  
Did you know then
how such a narrow field of silence
would have her tripping
over her own bittersweet lines?

She watched you read those pages repeatedly
smiling like you received a medal of honor;
then lean forward with nothing to say at all.  
Did you ever consider
the rose-colored glasses she wore.  

She knows that you have never pretended
to be anything other than what you are
still she  finds you taste like the purest water.  
If you listen carefully,
you can hear her calling  out
for another drink of you.

In the meantime, you leaned forward
to stroke her hair
without ever turning on the light.  
While the world wished,
it could too.

Come and take my hand in yours
take a walk with me.
Let's look up at the stars above
listen to the breeze.

No sound to hear but each step we make
while gazing at the moon.
Just the sound of each breath we take
listening to a nightingale's sweet croon.

Let's stop and stand here in this silence
for just a little while.
Pretend we have forever
to walk for miles and miles.

Hello my sweet friend.
It seems I have been asleep forever.
My eyes have been closed for numerous ages
And have not seen your heart.

Your heart is so bright and achingly beautiful
That I must go back to sleep
And turn away as to continue looking
Could pull me into places I am afraid to go.

I have seen you with my eyes closed
As you are in front of me.
Yet I have not seen you as you truly are
With my eyes and heart wide open.

This revelation strikes chords in my soul
That I never knew existed.
How could I have been so blind?

I must take leave of your heart's beauty
And find refuge in my sleep
As remaining here in this revelation
May change my destiny in such ways
As I am not prepared to see.

Fools rush in where fools have been before
To repeat yesterday's mistakes
As if they want to be fooled forevermore
And keep the tracks of tears upon their face

They put no lessons learned under their belt
And run quickly back in the door
As if the blow received was never felt
Fools run blindly back for more

They put the weight of the world upon their back
And never ask for a helping hand
And feign surprise in response to an attack
On everything that they command

No different tactic do they take when going back again
And proceed as if they have lost their mind
Expecting the results to change and this time to win
Is this not insanity defined?

I have been searching for you all my life
This heart of mine has been broken many times
The ones I found have not been true
As their hearts were not mine

So come now and gently take my hand
Place it upon your face
Let me look into your eyes
As your lips I trace

Tell me now you've searched for me too
And that you know I am the one
Especially made for you
When the world was young

I am hearing now all these delicate words so moving
Gathering in passion around my heart
Placing life inside so soothing
A song, from which
I cannot part

Is there such a thing as unthinking quiet for some
While all these words run through me
If my mind were ever silent would I become
A different shade
Peacefully

Am I not blessed to hear these words
To be brushed by delicate wings
Should I not take pride in all I have heard
Share this life
As I sing

Should I freeze my thoughts not to hear these words
Could my heart survive the hunger
Would it not be absurd
To never share
The wonder

Please take this fire away from me
With it I don't know what to do
You are what I want and what I need
And I burn with love for you

This heart of mine cries out to me
Move back from the flame
Yet I move even closer
And have only self to blame

I have tried to stop this need inside
By throwing sand upon the fire
This inside it will not die
The flames they just burn higher

Run to me when your worlds not right
I'll meet you halfway
Tell me all that has gone wrong
I want to hear about your day

Come to me when you are glad
And share your joy with me
I will listen with a smile
As your joy I love to see

Place your hand in mine
Whenever you need a friend
And have nothing at all to say
I'll hold yours once again
And quietly I'll stay

My arms are open always for you
Anytime that you need to be held close
And I'll enfold you in their love
As it is what you need the most

A wild new wind northeasterly blew across all you needed to slow your pulse, send you on a quest deep enough for years. There you looked into the keyhole once again and found yourself distracted by the very heart of all your fears.

Streams of it’s your own **** fault entered both your ears in faint beams of weathered destinations where you danced on frozen lakes. It’s there you realized you had been introduced to the roots which seal a kiss with all of your heartaches.

You ask yourself if it’s harder to abandon the clouds of experience, walk away and rise to see what you can see. While I watch you leave a legacy of tilting windmills on a sunset of phrases and words that breathe in a ceremony only heard by me.

I feel your eyes caress me
Each time I pass you by
I pretend that I don't notice
We both know  how hard I try

I can't help but stand a little closer
Then I really should
I can see you want to touch me
Oh how I wish you would

I find myself locked in your stare
As I'm staring back at you
I see so much desire in your eyes
And can't hide the want I have for you

How much longer can I play this game
And not act upon the need
To feel your heart beat next to mine
As you fan the fire you feed

Reclaim the hook you baited before you fell asleep
Left tossing in the waves of my sea
A never ceasing vision calling from the deep
Reclaim it as there will be
No bite from me

There were never any winds to carry your enticement
Or any of your unreserved choices or pleas
Reclaim your hook with the same excitement
You held, when you pictured me
Down upon my knees

Are you roused from your slumber, pulling on your line
You left tossing in the waves of my sea
It appears that your bait contained way too much brine
To ever catch the thirsty
Side of me

Sometimes I get so tired of everything
And happiness I just can't find
Direction is so lacking
I think I'll lose my mind

I can't decide which way is up
Or which way to go
I get so agitated
Why I just don't know

I could just chalk it off to my ***
And lay the blame aside
But I think to look at myself
And take a look inside

Perhaps the way I look at things
Could the problem be
And this I need to change
To be a different me

You came and stood in silence,
never said a word.
I felt your pain so loudly
what you never said I heard.

What is it that you are afraid of?
It cannot be the light.
It is what you are drawn too
clearly in your sight.

I feel everything you don't say
as if you have spoken out.
Don't just continue in your silence
you need to let it out.

I do believe I’ve left my heart
Somewhere by the road
I can’t seem to feel it anymore
It was such a heavy load

Perhaps I should go back and find it
And put it back in place
But I feel so much lighter
With this smile upon my face

My heart contained the many tears
That I cried every night
I don’t believe I’ll miss them
While they are out of sight

I think that I’ll just leave it lay
Just be empty for awhile
Then I know that I won’t cry
And you can see me smile

Don't keep running after yesterday
Searching for it's why
Seeking all the answers there
And why it made you cry

Does it really matter how it came about
Only if it over must be done
And what would be the changes
At the setting of the sun

Your regrets may be too many
Your smiles may be too few
Just put yesterday behind you
Today, it is for you

Tangled sheets of mystery sweet
Engulf your every move
Yet my contemplation of reality
I cannot remove

To think I know or understand
What’s never been defined
While believing in the innocence
When there is none to find

Seen and said while taken back
What does one believe
That which is seen and heard inside
Or that which does relieve

What is meant and what is said
The same you often bring
But does your laughter take it back
Or lessen any of the sting

You wait alone in silence
I can feel you there
Standing in the shadows
My soul you want laid bare

My eyes are blinded
By your light
They look but they don't see
This heart it feels you
And it knows
That what you stand for
I don't need

Continue waiting in your silence
My joy you cannot take
These eyes, they may not see you
For what you really are
But my heart's eyes
Can feel you
And they, are wide awake

There is so much I wish to share with you
Every part of me
Heart, Body, mind and soul
All that I am and can be

There is nothing I have that is not yours to hold
Myself I give freely to you
To hold and to love as only you can
And to you I'll always be true

All that I am and all that I have
Is my gift to you
Freely I give myself into your love
As freely you accept it too

Write me sweet words of love
And send them all to me
So I can hear your voice inside my head
As I read them tenderly

Send me music that is so rare
Like none I've ever heard
Something different from all the rest
Is what my heart prefers

Teach me things that I don't know
And show me something new
Then tell me why you want me
And make me want you too

The days that I awake without a care
And find my heart to be so light
Are the days I need to watch my step
And prepare myself to fight

These are the days I find myself
Accosted at every corner
By spirits with harmful intentions
Attempting to be advisors

They bid to put dark doubts in my mind
And fear deep in my soul
Telling me what I do will make no difference
When Heaven's roll is called

No interest lies in those he knows he has already
He seeks those who walk the lighted path
Extinguishing all the light he may
And will send upon them all his wrath

We must remember on the good days
When all is going right
This is when the soul's in danger
So be prepared to fight

All this time, I have thought
As I laid my heart at your feet
That my whole world revolved round you
And all my needs you'd meet

I thought the sun it rose in you
And without you it would not
That my whole world it turned for you
And in all of this I forgot

I forgot about my true purpose
Lost sight of His Plan
When I put all my faith in you
I put all my faith in man

There is emptiness in my beloved silence
That I have never felt before
Circling and squeezing my heart
I don't think I like this silence anymore

Alone in my solitude I have been content
Allowing no one into my world
Full of knowledge of how true love should be
Known by a heart that refuses to unfurl

What good is this wisdom to this heart of mine
If I am too afraid to step out into the sun
Frightened that I might get burned
If I find out that you're not the one

In a perfect world it never turns
Everything stands still
Nothing changes and nothing will
And nothing will you feel

What a tragic world it'd be
If all of it stood still
Yet nothing would be going wrong
But nothing would be real

I do believe that I would rather
Have it spin too fast
Than stand here staring at nothingness
To make perfection last

I am holding on by my fingernails
And slowly losing my mind
Attempting to keep up with all the things
That make no never mind

In some reckless attempt to be set free
And myself to somehow please
I have managed to misplace
The one I know as me

I'm so distracted and consumed
By unimportant ventures
That I have forgotten to take the time
To embark on my own adventures

Once again I came and waited here for you
Knowing you would never show
So I sat and watched the ivy climbing true
Upon these walls
To and fro

I do believe this time next year
Still waiting, I will be
Filling my artesian well full of all these tears
Flowing freely
Inside of me

Perhaps one day all that climbing ivy
Will overtake my well
Take within itself all this inside me
I am afraid to show
And tell

Therefore, no longer will I sit here and wait for you
Knowing you will never show
I will go out into the world searching true
Leave this ivy here
Alone to grow

I will no longer wait for you to come to me
Filling my artesian well
Instead, I will leave all this ivy here to be
As I climb right out of
My own shell

You ask for truth
I speak it freely
I tell you how I feel
You say you hear me,
Yet I think you never will

Why does it always have to be your way?
Do my feelings make a difference to you?
Our friendship means so much to me
As I know, I mean to you

One should not attempt to hold onto
A heart one does not freely give
However, give wings to what they cherish
Moreover, smile and watch them live.

Please listen to me--
I have been listening to you.

Let love and compassion flow into your heart
And drown all the anger in its path
Such a heavy burden will be lifted from your soul
As your happiness and joy you take back

Hate and resentment harbored from within
Destroys all the beauty you have inside
Let love and compassion take it from your heart
Then, in joy you can abide

Replace the unsightliness with beauty
That flows only from love
Then you'll find rest in your journey
And the peace that comes from up above

Your love is gentle like a soft rain
That waters this heart of mine
It quenches a great thirst
And brings relief
The likes I never thought I'd find

Your words are like a soft breeze
That blows across my face
Each time I hear your voice
I smile inside
And I know I've found my place

You are the missing piece
That I have searched for
Through all these years of strife
And you complete this puzzle
That I call my life

I laugh into the face of doubt and questioning
As they dare to knock upon my door
As I know all the reasons
They have come here for

Thinking to put what I do in reserve
Doubt thinks I'll give an inch
Dust your shoes off and take a walk
Doubt you've been benched

Questioning I have no use for you
Here in this heart of mine
This that I believe in can't be touched
No power here you'll find

Both of you get back on your path
One that leads elsewhere
I have no need for either of you
You're not welcome here