Here I am
Hurting
More than hurt,
I reached out
Cracked
The pistacho shell
I hid in,
Thought it better
That I do
Something
Bigger than myself,
But here
I stand
Faltering
Nothing to lean on,
This unbalanced
Teeter totter
The only
Weeble wobble
That could be
Toppled,
I can't pretend
I am not vulnerable
And yet I endure...

APAD16 - 021 © okpoet

She brushes
Up against me
But I am not the canvas
She seeks,
The colors I bleed
She cares not for,
If I carefully hang myself
She will not notice
The light that breaks
Upon my surface
Will not illuminate her face,
She has but a few strokes
And those she reserves
For the likes of him,
Priceless art
In the exhibit halls
Of her mind,
Spotlight
She guides
Her thoughts
Through his texture
Retrace every layer
That came before me,
I will sit empty
On this easel forgotten,
Unfinished masterpiece...

APAD16 - 020 © okpoet

Everything
Matters
A bit more
Because we're in this
Together,
A barren field of *****
I had none a ton
Before you came,
But don't look now
It's overgrown
Cultivated with care
And it hurts
How much
Brighter
Warmer
Alive,
The world around me
Seems through you,
Stars gaze at me
Am I smiling harder
Wider than I can contain
See what you've done?

APAD16 - 019 © okpoet

You tip toe
I'm a steel toe steppin' hard
Gonna crush your piggies
You'll not limp far
I'll get the pickle jar
Preserve this moment
Turn in your rep card
Membership revoked
Just another Joe
Go play with those *******
You're a weak man
Basic for *******
Slave to the substances
Abuse the gifts
Treasure the highs
Get off your lows
Blow smoke
Up hoes
Rake in those pennies,
Get to work
Maybe then
You'll collect
And you'll
Fare well...

APAD16 - 018 © okpoet

I can't hold you
Like I really want to,
Hold you
Where my hands
Could leave imprints
That will not be easy to forget,
I can't caress you
Like I really want to,
Trace every inch of you
A map that leads
To the stars in your eyes,
I can't love you
Like I really want to,
Ardently consume you
A feverish attempt
To absorb you,
But for a moment
Intensely rage
Against the night sky
Feel your soul
Bubble beneath your skin
Peel like a sunburn,
But I can make do
Just being next to you...

APAD16 - 017 © okpoet

Imagine when it's years
You lost count of the tears,
Next to her
Time stood still,
But when she left
It was theft after theft,
Time escaping
Between the moments
You try to remember
And the memories
You cannot forget,
How you lost yourself
And now you're trying again
To find the you that was
Whole before she
Came in
Like that wrecking ball,
You know
You're never going to be done
Putting yourself back together,
Find pieces
Under places
You don't want to look,
Afraid you'll still find her...

APAD16 016 © okpoet

She begs
And he delivers
Mutual destruction
Tearing them together
They know not
What ails them,
They utter love
But this carnage
That leaves them
Breathless panting
Made dogs
Is beyond
Their understanding,
Lying to themselves
That either one
Is the Master
Of their domain,
Ashes and cinders
They shed
Their feet trailing
Their hearts molten,
There will be nothing left
But bones on a bed
No one standing...

APAD16 015 © okpoet