Knowing when and how to walk away with grace and dignity
Returning if it is welcome and possible
Knowing how to calm the flames of your mind and cool down so your heart beats gently
Unlike characters on ****** Tunes and Hanna Barbera cartoons
Believing that there is hope and working with it
Holding on to what matters and making that work for you
Happiness is learning to cope well so you can enjoy your life and those around you
This heart is coping
Hope yours is too

C@rainbowchaser2021

When I was younger, I used to think I was going to be a Star.
Under a spotlight where everyone knew my name...
I was five.

Now, I want shadows and to be as far away as possible.
Hidden and far from consequence,
And even further from myself.
Where my name is not a name,
But just another word without any true meaning.

When I was younger, I used to think I was going to be a Star.
Now, I want to disappear.

I should have jumped overboard when I had the chance.

I fall for you
But it's not true
You saw me through cracked door
And I saw you sitting on the floor
We saw each other through a small hole
And that was the last day I saw you
From that day I fall for you
Untill now I Love you

You don’t have to settle. It’s your life.
No matter which life you choose or chose as long as you don't get knocked up you CAN unchoose it. If you took your last breath would you cry a happy tear or a sad tear? Choose it well.

From river to lake to ocean
The waves just grow larger and more fierce as time goes on.
Shame on me.
Shame on you.
What did we do?
We threw each other out to sea
And now we’re fighting for what’s not meant to be.
How could it be that it’s gotten this far? This extreme.
I cannot even look at me.
My heart is sinking.
My stomach is in a never-ending tightening knot.
I hang my head as my soul withers away.
Silent tears fall from my face.
A heart so heavy, fear and shame is all over my name.
But you, how could you?
I gave you a million chances and you just let it burn down to ash.
You don’t understand me.
You don’t get me.
You don’t hear me.
I can scream in pain but it’s never enough.
You just mentally run away and hide in your own space.
I told you we’re not meant to be.
I told you it’s over between you and I
But you refuse to agree.
You refuse to accept the truth.
We fight.
We get in the sheets.
We get high.
Put it all on repeat.
It’s nothing but a vicious cycle.
Can’t you see?
I’m bleeding internally.
You’re bleeding physically.
We’re cursed.
Or just not meant to be.
We need to set each other free.
Let’s let each other just be.
You say you’re in love with me
But none of it can be.
After all this time
After all the pain
All the sleepless nights and
Screaming battle fights.
Yelling turned to physical touch.
I told you just to back away.
Get out of face.
Stay out of my way.
But you don’t listen.
You never do.
It’s gone too far.
We can’t take anything back.
What’s done is done.
I’ve hurt you.
You’ve hurt me.
This is just one ****** up relationship and “love” if you ask me.
Just when I think I can walk away you pull me back in.
Stop it.
We have to walk away.
Let go of my arm.
Let go of my hand.
There’s nothing to hold onto.
We barely never had anything at all.
Yet I’m dying inside from emotional and mental pain and now ******* shame.
We need to close door.
At the same time.
Better days are to come
But riding along each other’s sides
Isn’t where we belong.
We’ve been in this far too long and now we have scarred each other for life.
I’m so sorry.
Sorry it got this far.
This out of control.
I wish you would just walk away but you have such a tight grasp.
But onto what?
Because we ain’t got nothing but a poisonous love.

You’re the monster in my head.
The poison in my bed.
The reason that I tread.
I’ve been mislead.
You’ve left to me rot instead.
And now I’m almost dead.

Days are getting longer.
Thoughts are getting smaller.
Silence creeps in as words grow colder.

You say I am not good enough for you
when you are the one who's not enough to see who I truly am