Im ****** up on you.
You're ****** up on antidepressants
Couldn't see that from the start because you blinded me with your beauty
You must've stayed because I made you feel alive, gave you a crimson color in your skin
Then you found another that gave you feeling in your chest and made blood flow through your cut wrists
You use to have ****** lips because you chewed through them
I guess anxiety will do that to you
You would kiss me when no one was watching and hold my hand when we snuck out your parents house at night
Then behind closed doors your insecurities seemed to disappear
The way you bit into the flesh of my neck and forced me to the bed
Caressed my thighs and gave me a french kiss in a foreign place
Made my back arch as I moaned your name
In the morning I'd leave and come back the next day
Then you started to distance yourself
Ignored calls
****** fists of confusion
Teary eyes and smeared makeup
You stopped answering the door after your mom constantly told me you weren't feeling well
I was abandoned by you
The one person that gave me butterflies and hickies
Knew how to make me laugh but moan after hours
Even though you saw yourself as damaged goods, I saw you as a gift from god
You gave me chills down my spine
Clumsily licked my teeth with your tongue during a kiss
Laid with your body inside of mine as I held you tight and put my face in your neck
Now I yearn for your scent and to see your smile
But you're nowhere to be found
Gone in the blink of an eye
I dread the thought of how fast you slipped away from me
I miss your tight hugs and how you grabbed the back of my neck to pull me in for a kiss
I miss the light you brought to my eyes
How you didn't have to hide behind a mask with me and made yourself so vulnerable
Come back to me.