Cigarettes ****?

I'll chain smoke everyday.
While driving through storms,
I don't wear a seatbelt and hope I get
taken too. Everyone says

'life is part of death'

That phrase couldn't be more true.
Can't wait till the day I am next to you.

I've wanted to die a thousand times
yet I still find a reason to get up
in the mourning. . .

All I have left is hope and cigarettes..