imagine a day when the skies are grey.
knowing you still won't be with me by the end of the day
bolts of thunder hit my aching heart
tell me, what made us grow apart?

i stay awake in most nights
listening to my drowning heartbeat
its nonrhythmic pattern made my body ignite
i'm burning, i can't stand the heat.

maybe someday i will love again
maybe someday i will find someone other than you who would dance with me under the pouring rain
this is one hell of a rollercoaster ride.
now, i understand.
i understand, it wasn't meant for us to collide.

that rush of excitement flows through your veins to the thought of adventure. being with your friends around a campfire. fitting clothes in the same dressing room. laughing to jokes until your lungs give out. now that feeling is so out of reach. you couldn't get a grasp on your surroundings. you are like a wolf without a pack. nothing feels right...

one day, you feel like the world is finally in harmony with your soul, the next, all you want to do is crawl in bed, hide away from everyone else. it all suddenly feels like you are on your own again, your mind is drained from all the thoughts crashing rapidly through the walls of your brain. no one, not even yourself can understand what's happening. you feel so lost meanwhile the world continues to revolve around you, but you are there, feeling so numb and not knowing what went so wrong. the unsurprising knowledge that you are disconnected from everybody else; detached.