She makes me sick
Her lips are like poison      and i cant get enough
Each kiss gets me a bit closer to closure with the fact she's not really mine Maybe its just whats left on her lips the whisky got us tipsy and were making mistakes making out on the couch just because we can she tells me were just friends but we begin to dig into each others skin she's driving me crazy then with a few more shots everything gets fuzzy the smacking of our lips begin to stop next thing i knew we were shacking up, But is this really okay aren't we just friends? This cant be true?   I dont know but i cant think straight and im pretty sure she cant either i try to stop but the flow of our bodies are just saying go at it, The next morning as i wake up i realize shes gone a note in her place saying shes sorry for the one nighter and that when shes drunk she cant control herself so i just try to avoid contact for a while and the desire to do so is killing me So i call her.... She answers.. and its all okay were still friends till the end.. which is whenever i can end it because in all reality i cant do this she's either mine or no ones at all...

I swallow it whole, with a swig of whisky down it goes. Maybe i wont put on a show this time. Maybe I'll pass out before the alcohol gets a hold of me and i take off my clothes. Maybe i should take a few more pills, Another fist full of pills with a little help from my friend jack down they go. My vision gets blurry and i feel like everything is rushing around me in a hurry. So in a scurry i run to my bed hopefully i didnt take to much and i pass out dead i stop before i get there and i grab my head in hopes for the spinning to stop but it doesnt everything just keeps twirling like a top i reach to unlock my door but i fall to the floor in a drunkin fury i barge in my room ****** at everything i lay in bed with the hopes of sobering up soon I shut my eyes as time passes i feel like i begin to die the pills take ahold and i feel like a comet zooming threw space seeing all the stars and looking at all my scars, scars you've caused even though you use to be my number one star, My sun my universe,  my everything but now your my nothing and it makes me sick, sick enough to ***** and stop this suicidal craze and began my journey back home through this universal maze

What is silence? Is silence just quite violence going on in your head making you wish you were dead suppressed like a gun with a suppressor I died in silence with a bullet to the head, im sorry I gave up I was just on my last thread

Im mently breaking down and your words are like bullets they hurt with each letter another round is fired you say its "sophisticated" and that its for the better, but what if you were my better, Not my everything, but definitely my something, my something cute my something sweet my something to love, my someone special, you were mine

You destroyed me, You lied to me Now all i can think is why dont i just die? Give up your done trying she never wanted you by her side It was just something to hoax you into suicide so my thoughts have been destroyed and happiness in pieces Like a shattered mirror trying to pick up the pieces but with each shard of glass I get cut deeper and deeper blood stains the carpet red As the thoughts rush into my head I think why not so I grab a piece just to cut my leash around my neck I pass out dead on the carpet stained red

Mother you ignore me, i remember when you use to adore me I was Your "baby boy" Yeah that use to annoy me But i had gotten use to it now im staring to miss it. My thoughts have become dismal with rejection,  I remember when you use to inject, But you stopped for me you came clean just for me. But now your forty and your not
even for me you just ignore me..

Dear Juliet i know i couldnt follow in the footsteps that you had set for me i might not be that perfect Romeo but baby im still that wonderful me i know im not all that its cracked up to be but you know id always lie by your side when you cry ill fight all of your tears and everyone of your fears right there with you baby as long as im here youll never have to be anyone but your perfect little self