Truth be told my heart hurts
It's still torn apart, broken
Seeks warmth but the cold is the heart new home
She was supposed to be my whole world
Even tho this was some time ago
the damage is still done
It's like breaking a plate and telling the plate your sorry
But the plate still broken Into a thousand shards and pieces,
Not to be put together again
I live my days feeling empty
I hide my pain with a smile
I won't release the tears In my eyes
Females not the only one who put walls up

A friend knows the song in your heart and can sing it back to you when you have forgotten the words
Who knows the tune that my heart plays
Because I can't hear the words my heart speak
I feel lost inside my own world
Can't locate where my heart is
Inside my chest is cold below zero
I'm losing the fight against sanity
Slowly slipping back into depression
Happiness is a foreign word that I don't comprehend
So again Who knows the tune that my heart plays
Who can restore my faith in myself
I try but can't do it alone...

Not religious but lords knows I'm trying
How can I lose when I came from the bottom
Feel like I been to hell and back several times
Every time I thigh about my dad I wann cry
Sometimes I wish someone would **** me
But I got too much pride to lay down and die
These pain is too intense to hide
It's oozing out like blood from a bullet wound
I wonder if turning to God will make it all better
I refuse to struggle like my mom did
Whatever I do I'm gonn prevail
Don't wann back to hell
That's the dark place in my head...

Time is all I need
In time I'll become a better me
I'ma be what I set out to be, without a doubt
I'm sorry disappearing but
I just can't keep living this way
So starting today,
I'm breaking out of this cage
I'm standing up,
I'ma face my demons
Break-up with my fears
And Marry my dream
I'm manning up,
Time to put my life back together right now
This is not just for me but for ya too
They say little sisters look up to there big brother
But how can that be
When I hate my reflection, I walk around the house tryin' to fight mirrors
Soon enough I'll be the man I wanna be
A man who someone would be proud to claim
Better than my brothers
Better then my father